My Call to God
I was raised and grew up in a Muslim community with almost 85% of people being Muslims, 10% Christians and the rest 5% atheists.
My family in particular, was divided between Muslims – almost 95% of them and only about 5% representing the Christians.
From my early age, I always believed in God as the creator of the universe and maker of all things visible and invisible, even though I did not belong to any of them. So I had friends from both sides with no problem existing between us, since we all believed in one God.
My confusion started when I heard the claim from the Muslims that Jesus was just a messenger of God, just like Mohamed was. And the Christians on the other side, they worshiped Jesus as God, calling Him the Son of the living God.
There is when I started wondering and seeking the truth from God Himself, because my parents couldn’t explain to me why the difference between the two.
I started visiting the Mosque on Fridays to pray as a Muslim and also went to Church on Sundays, so I could understand their faith.
While praying to God, something told me to read their books, so I got a translated copy of the Quran and also of the Bible in my language. But nothing was clear enough to me to decide which way I should take.
My question was:
If the Bible being the first one to be introduced, claims that Jesus is the Messiah – the Son of God, why did God send the Angel Gabriel to Mohamed to contradict the first message?
It did not make any sense to me at all. So I decided to stop going to those places (Mosque and Church), and even though deep inside my heart I believed in God, my prayer life was not the same any more.
Later on, I was relocated to a community of Muslims only, and my relatives, being all Muslims, they recommended that I should go to Mosque to pray anyway with the excuse that I would understand the faith over time, which I accepted and was part of that congregation for a few years.
And sometime later, I was again relocated to another community of Christians only, so I started going to Church to pray. In my mind, I just wanted to pray to God even though I had no full understanding of those faiths.
And then as a teenager in Senior High School and later at the University, I ended up somewhere in the world where faith in God was not something of much talk between the students.
It was right then that my life took another direction and I started living any kind of how. It took me to the point where I saw my colleges (who practiced the faith) to be losers and that they were just wasting their time instead of having fun with girls and disco.
Of course I had God in my mind, but I did not think it was a big deal to live the way I was living. I saw nothing wrong with it, as long as I did not kill anyone, steal or provoke someone. My life was just fine as long I did not go to Church, because then I would have to be committed to the laws of God.
My reasoning was that, if I didn’t go to Church, then my life was okay to live the way I wanted, but if I decided to go back, then I would have to avoid certain things that God prohibited in His book, so I would have to obey Him, and honestly, I did not want to change. I liked the way I was living, it felt good to me.
But then, the indecision of whether I should become a Muslim or a Christian still bothered me. In my mind, I saw no problem between them, except where the Muslims didn’t believe in Jesus as the Son of God and the Christian do.
So I went to my room, prostrated next to my bed and I started to pray. I started asking God to reveal Himself to me. I started asking Jesus to tell me the truth about all this and why Mohamed did not consider/accept /acknowledge Him as the Son of God? Was the story about the angel Gabriel revealing to Mohamed a legit story or, was it a made up one?
After I had finished praying, I went back to my friends to chat when all of a sudden this young man approached me and asked: “is this the type of life you are planning to live for the rest of your life?”
I was like, “What are you talking about?” And he went on saying: “All you care is about woman and having fun.”
So I said, “What is wrong with that?”
He did not go through the details about it, he just said, “If you want to have a stable life, makeup your mind and just focus in one woman. You have no idea how much God has saved you from danger.”
That talk had me thinking. Because I was like, how did he know me to talk to me the way he did?
Well, to make a long story short, I prayed to God for a good woman in my life. Sometime later, I got involved with a Christian girl from the same school and started my life with her.
She then invited me to her Church. We got engaged and some years later I got married to her and we are still together to this day.
Now, because I did not want to have a division of faith between us and subsequently affect our future children, I decided to get baptized in her Church, even though I still had some questions. Eventually, things started changing from average to worse. I went through some financial problems, health problems among other things to the point of giving up in my marriage.
So during that time, my only consolation was to read the bible and the Quran from time to time, of course, with little understanding of it.
I remember being unemployed for about two years or so and even though I had the support from my wife, I really didn’t feel complete. It just didn’t feel right being maintained by a woman. In my family we were not educated like that. I wanted to be the one supporting my family.
I was very exposed, vulnerable and tempted in doing things that were not good before God.
I recall having this conversation with a “friend” where he recommended that I jump into selling drugs. He said the life I was living was kind of hard and that I had two choices if I wanted to live a better life; Sell drugs to fix my financial situation at that time or remain a Christian and be poor. So I said, it sounds good, but no, thanks. I would prefer to remain the way I am right now than to follow your recommendation.
To my surprise, two days later, I got a call from a company for an interview. It is a place where I had dropped my resume off 3 years prior to my unemployment, and they hired me on the spot after my interview. Please note that they usually kept resumes for 6 months the most. Right then and there, I knew that God was working wonders in my life.
Despite the type of life I had in my teenager years, God was good to me for He protected me from many, many bad situations. I also remember applying for a visa to a foreign country while in school, and during that time, our embassy used to keep our passports.
So I decided to request it from them so I could apply for a visa. The Ambassadors’ secretary told me not to waste my time because I had a simple passport.
She said, ”If the Ambassador’s children who have diplomatic passports were not approved for visa to visit that country, what makes you think that you will get it”. I said, “Lady, please just give me the passport”, and in my mind I said, “They are just Ambassador’s children; I am the son of the living God and I know He will help me to get there safe and sound”.
God knew that I had a good purpose to get there. I was going to visit my first born son and I really didn’t want to miss that opportunity. So she gave it to me, I applied for the visa and in a week or so, I was approved. I took it back to her so she could see that, though it was a simple passport, with God's grace, it was approved.
This is just a recount of how good God is.
Despite my way of life, He was merciful to me. Please note that I am not encouraging people to live any kind of how. I did what I did because I knew no better and God knew that, because He could see my heart.
And now as a Christian, I would fast and pray just the same way I used to do while I frequented the Mosque. No water or anything of food during the 12 hours for the 40 days during the Lenten season or I would fast every other day for the rest of the year.
And then I started having dreams and sometimes visions of things beyond my understanding.
I recall one morning while getting up for work when all of a sudden, I saw these two figures with human like shape, very bright, with a high speed passing just outside my window, as if they were going through the wall connected to my kids bedroom.
So I asked my wife if she had seen what I just witnessed, but she answered no. Right there I knew that they were angels from God; but why? I had no idea. It did not take long before one of my kids screamed: centipede, centipede. I went to their room and I saw this giant creature just about to climb over the bed. I was very terrified as I killed the animal and said to myself, they were certainly, angels that came to protect my kids from being bitten.
They prevented the creature from going up on the bed. They opened my son’s eyes to see it and allowed me to get there in time so I could kill it. I said, thank you Father God, thank you Jesus for your mercy.
But despite all these things God was showing me, part of me had doubts and the other part wanted to believe that Jesus was the son of God, so there was confusion in my mind still.
Jesus is revealed in my life
I said, “Lord, please help me to understand all this.” Who should I believe; the Christians who call Jesus the son of God or should I believe the Muslims who claim that Jesus is just a messenger of God, just like Mohamed?
I got no response for about a week or so. Well, to be honest, I don’t recall how long. So a few days later, I went to work as normal and during my lunch time, while sitting by the table, this young man approached me and said, “What do you think Mr.?” I answered, “About what?” Then he said, “My manager just told me that he doesn’t think Jesus is the Son of God, he says that He is just a messenger of God, just like Mohamed.” I thought to myself, is this confirmation that Jesus is only a messenger?
Then I asked, “Is your boss a Muslim?” and he said, “No, no, no…, he is a Christian.” So I said, “He is a Christian and told you that Jesus was just a messenger? Wow – I exclaimed.
And then I said, “Well, don’t fight him. Let God himself reveal the truth to him.” But then I remembered that I had both Bible and Quran apps installed on my cellphone. Immediately, this voice came into my mind saying, why don’t you check the Bible?
I said, “I remember reading something in the bible about Jesus being the Son of God. The only problem is that I didn’t recall in what book.” So I decided to open the book of Luke and handed the device to the young man who read:
“John Chapter 1: verse 1:
1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.
2 He was in the beginning with God.
[3-4] All things came to be through him, and without him nothing came to be.
What came to be through him was life, and this life was the light of the human race;
...14 And the Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us,
and we saw his glory, the glory as of the Father’s only Son, full of grace and truth."
So in my mind I was like no, I gave him Luke and not John. I remember very well that I had pressed the book of Luke and how come he is reading the book of John? I asked to myself.
Right then and there I realized that it was talking about Jesus. I couldn’t stand up, my knees were weak and I said, “My God and my Lord. Forgive me for ever doubting you, but I just needed more proof.”
From that time on, everything in me changed. I became fully devoted to God and to His Son – our Lord Jesus Christ. It was a unique experience that I felt…
I know that people may think otherwise, but I don’t care. It was my experience, my personal testimony and no one can make me think otherwise.
God’s Revelations to me - Or should I call it God's illumination to me
The time passed by and sometime later, I had this dream where someone was telling me to look at the sky. When I looked around to see who was talking, I saw nobody, so I said well, let’s take a look.
Opening my eyes toward the heavens, I saw written in the sky “1 Corinthians: 31 or 41” among other chapters and verses of the same book. The sky was full of the writings but not in details.
In the morning when I woke up, I decided to open the Bible and look for it. I realized that 1 Corinthians had no chapter 31 or 41; I then decided to look between the chapters, for the verses 31 and 41.
To my surprise, it was talking to me. It was pointing out the areas of my life that I had problems.
Just to give you an example, I had boasting problems, just like any other human being on this earth who believes that whatever they have accomplished in life, it was by their own effort, without any intervention from God.
So when I opened the Bible “1 Corinthians 1:31” the first message I saw was:
I was like no way, it can’t be.
And this is my reasoning:
So I close by reciting 1 Peter 1: 3-5
31 therefore, as the Scriptures say, “If you want to boast, boast only about the Lord.”
and then I went on checking the other verses which read:
1 Corinthians 7:31 NLT
31 Those who use the things of the world should not become attached to them. For this world as we know it will soon pass away.
1 Corinthians 10:31 NLT
31 So whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.
1 Corinthians 11:31 NLT
31 But if we would examine ourselves, we would not be judged by God in this way.
1 Corinthians 12:31 NLT
31 So you should earnestly desire the most helpful gifts. But now let me show you a way of life that is best of all.
1 Corinthians 14:31 NLT
31 In this way, all who prophesy will have a turn to speak, one after the other, so that everyone will learn and be encouraged.
1 Corinthians 15:31 NLT
31 For I swear, dear brothers and sisters, that I face death daily. This is as certain as my pride in what Christ Jesus our Lord has done in you.
1 Corinthians 15:41 NLT
41 The sun has one kind of glory, while the moon and stars each have another kind. And even the stars differ from each other in their glory.
But the story did not end there. Months later, I had another dream where I saw myself talking with an old Muslim friend of mine, someone who I met long ago during college time. I don’t remember how the dream started, but I happen to be in a place where everybody was holding a Holy Book.
So the Muslim friend, who was close to me, opened his book which was the Holy Bible and said to me, “Open your Bible in the book of Luke 5:15 and read it.” So I questioned him in my mind, “What are you doing with the Bible in your hands? Aren’t you a Muslim, and aren’t you supposed to be holding a Quran instead?”
Then he insisted that I open it, which I did. And then he started reading it for me. When he started reading it, it read as if he was reading Psalm 19. So I said to him, it can’t be. I have read Luke chapter 5 and it does not say what you are reading. But he didn’t argue with me, he only told me to look at the scripture that he was reading with my own eyes. After doing so, I saw exactly what he was reading and it was as if we were reading Psalm 19.
After that, I saw him no more. Then I found myself asking God in my mind, “Why did it have to be a Muslim reading those Bible verses to me?” I then heard a voice as if it was a voice of Jesus speaking. Please note that in real life, I have never heard a voice of Jesus.
But in my dream, something inside of me told me that the voice I heard was Jesus speaking. Strange enough, but I just knew that it was the voice of Jesus talking with so much familiarity as if I've heard it before. And the voice said: “Because I will use their religion as a way to draw them to me."
It was confusing to me. I started reasoning in my head how the Lord Jesus would use Islam to draw the Muslims to Him? – But I got no answer then. I will talk about this later on once I have received all the information I need.
So, in the morning after I had finished dreaming, I got the Bible, opened Psalm 19 and Luke 5 and started reading them.
If you open Psalm 19: 1-4, it reads,
“1 The heavens proclaim the glory of God. The skies display his craftsmanship.
2 Day after day they continue to speak; night after night they make him known.
3 They speak without a sound or word; their voice is never heard.
4 Yet their message has gone throughout the earth and their words to the entire world.”
Then, when you open Luke 5: 12-15, it reads,
“ 12 In one of the villages, Jesus met a man with an advanced case of leprosy. When the man saw Jesus, he bowed with his face to the ground, begging to be healed. “Lord,” he said, “if you are willing, you can heal me and make me clean.”
13 Jesus reached out and touched him. “I am willing,” he said. “Be healed!” And instantly the leprosy disappeared.
14 Then Jesus instructed him not to tell anyone what had happened. He said, “Go to the priest and let him examine you. Take along the offering required in the Law of Moses for those who have been healed of leprosy. This will be a public testimony that you have been cleansed."
15 But despite Jesus’ instructions, the report of his power spread even faster, and vast crowds came to hear him preach and to be healed of their diseases.
Please note, I am not a scholar and I never went to Bible school either.
But according to the promptings of my heart, I felt as though God was sending a very important message to all of us; something that inspired me to write what is now written. In my heart, I felt as if God was telling us that there is still more to be revealed from the Bible that we would never imagine or comprehend on our own unless the Holy Ghost has revealed it to us.
I couldn’t know this by just reading the Bible unless it was revealed to me by someone – and this time, it was the Holy Ghost who revealed it to me.
In conclusion, despite the silence of the heavens, the Glory of God is spread everywhere.
Despite Jesus’ instructions to not tell anyone, His Glory spread everywhere.
1. At first, He (Jesus) was revealed to me in the way I said at the beginning.
2. Secondly, God tells me not to boast, and if I do so, I must boast about Him. In this line God points out to me that if He gets to reveal something to me, it is not because I am so special before Him than anyone else or I am a very prayerful person than anyone else – but because of His grace that He has chosen me.
3. Thirdly, the Holy Ghost reveals whatever He wishes to reveal to me and when He wishes to reveal it – then He reminds me that it is not about me, but about Him. His word must be told to everyone if He has commanded so and I must not add or take away from it.
All praise is to You God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. It is by your great mercy that we have been born again, because you raised Jesus Christ from the dead.
Now we live with great expectation, and we have a priceless inheritance - an inheritance that is kept in heaven for us, pure and undefiled, beyond the reach of change and decay.
And through our faith, God is protecting us by His power until we receive this salvation, which is ready to be revealed on the last day for all of us to see. Amen.
I was like no way, it can’t be.
And this is my reasoning:
So I close by reciting 1 Peter 1: 3-5